GrandmotherThis is the only photograph on my Mother’s Mother, My Grandmother.

She dies when my Mother was just 9 years old and changed the path her life would take for ever. I often wonder what would have happened had she lived? My Mother may well have had a very different life, I may not even have been born, we will never know.

What I do know is that her early death and the absence of a Father made my Mother into a person she should not have been. I think it damaged her in a profound and long lasting way. The rest as they say is history.

This picture needed scanned and repaired. I have had it over in year on the list of things I MUST do and I am so pleased its done and looks as well as it does.

All of this was inspired by a new kit that Trish Jones produced this week in memory of her own Grandmother. The kit is called ‘Memories of Ivy‘. Ivy, unlike my Grandmother lived a long and full life, that I envy her. I wished my own Mother could have lead a more happy and fulfilling life than the one she has. I am clearly happy to have been born and to have my brothers but I just wish she could have enjoyed more happy days than I believe she has.

She is not my best friend, in fact she drives me crazy at times but I have always tried to understand why she had done the things she has and made those terrible choices and life altering decisions. Not everything we do is in our own or our families best interests but some of those decisions are made on the back of a lifetime of disappointments and failings. I don’t think she fully understands herself.

Let he who is perfect be the judge of all we do.

So pleased to have got this photograph preserved now, its all we have.

Until later xx..