On the 9th March 2005, in that one day, my life was complete. One very special little boy became ours forever. Nothing and no one would ever separate us and I thank God for him daily as he constantly reminds me how blessed I am and teaches me how to be ‘Mum’…

Speshal Dare #24

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In One Day…

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You were ours forever…
                                                                                          I could never have predicted this outcome all those years ago when we adopted our other 3 children.  Our eldest, a son, just 6 years old and his two sisters, our beautiful daughters, aged just 4 & 2. They came crashing into out lives one August day in 1999. We thought our family complete, it was planned that way. No more outside interference, we were a family, we were complete.

Then one Easter weekend morning a letter arrived and its contents would change our lives forever once again.

A baby, a boy, a brother, our new son???

How could we not?

We had given up all hope after so many years of ever having a baby to call our own?

Could this possibly be?

He was their brother..

He was utterly gorgeous…

He was to be MINE!

It was 12 agonising weeks before we finally got to meet out baby and bring him home. He was 9 months old when I took him on a flight that would mark a new beginning for us all.

We had all travelled to south meet him.

In One day……Old dreams came alive!


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                10 days later the other children and Andrew drove back with his few belongings in the car while I went ahead by plane with my new baby. What a journey that was. I shall never forget the overwhelming emotions running through my mind as stared at him in utter wonderment at the miracle of it all. That first night at home, just him and I will stay with me forever. I stared at him as he slept in the cot by my bed. I so desperately wanted Andrew home to see him lying there so peacefully. It was as if he had always been there. He was home, this was where he belonged, this what what I was born to do, this is what my life had been about, the forgotten dream was now a reality. I had my baby and oh how I loved him!

Forgotten were the endless years of fertility investigations, pills and potions, IUI, IVF, over and over year after year. Never forgotten was my little lost blossom baby, how often had I imagined his face, was this that same face I now saw or was my minds eye just making the memory fit? I don’t care.

We had been perfectly happy with our 3 children, we had moved on and they were all we had wanted …..until now.

This baby opened up all those old wounds but they no longer hurt. The hole in my heart that was to go to the grave with me was no longer there. I would be lying to say I would not have loved to have carried a baby and given birth myself but this little blessing was more than I had dared think of for years.

It brings tears to my eyes when I now think of all the things I would have missed out on, it is a good job that ignorance is indeed bliss. He brings so much into our lives, all of us are touched by him in a real and profound way. His siblings adore him and he them, our extended family adore him and he them, this was the master plan all along…..I wish I had known.

The court granted his adoption order in the blink of an eye (So different from the first time) and we walked out of court with our baby, 7 months after we first brought him home, he was forever ours…

In One Day..